The Spirit of Suicide

When I was child my brother passed away and it grieved me so much that I would pretend to be in a coffin to contact him. Well within a short time I started hearing and seeing spirits. My first encounter with the spirit of suicide I was only 10 years old. I started blaming myself for my brother passing away and I started feeling like life doesn't matter any more. Day and night I was tormented with thoughts of suicide and I found no relief.

By age 16 I started drinking heavy and the thoughts of suicide were going away at times but always coming back but now I felt like I am not good enough at anything so I started to imaging what it would be like to be dead and who would come to my funeral. This went on for a long time. As I was getting ready to graduate from high school I was so messed up on cocaine and meth plus drinking all the time just to numb my feelings because when the spirit of suicide would come before me he would bring such depressing thoughts with him to my mind. One thing that amazed me about this spirit is out of all the years being involved in Satanism or being involved with communicating with spirits threw a Ouija board, is all spirits would knock me down but the spirit of suicide would come and let me know just how valuable I was and just how much he loved me then he would make comments like 'its too bad you were born or its to bad you lost your brother, so I feel your pain and its ok to take your life'.

The spirit of suicide was always so beautiful and very charming in many ways it was like he appeared as an angel of light. Then one day in my early 20s I went to go see my girl friend and all that week before day and night I was literally going insane because of all the torment I endured hearing voices saying 'kill your self its ok'. Well at 10 am I was at this girls house and she said today is a good day to do it, so I said what and she pulled out a razor. So we went in her bath room and she put her hand over mine and we slashed my wrist wide open, she just laughed but I guess I was in shock because of all the blood so she did it again and again. Well she had me leave her place because she didn't want to be accused of murder so I blacked out while driving and ended up in a hospital.

Now here it is several years later I wrote a book called Suicide Spirit because most people cant imagine the suffering and torment I endured. I fought this spirit for 22 years. I battled with him over my life.

Sent in by Tim Thompson, Copyright 2010